Kate's Blog

Follow me if you will as I try to navigate through the ups and downs of my world.

I'm writing this blog to help me make sense of all that has happened - from my diagnosis with non-Hodgkins lymphoma while pregnant with my third child in May 2008
, through to my reflections on chaotic family life as I try to pick up the pieces of my life again.

The kids are so small, and I'm working hard to keep us all safe and to stay in remission.

Stay with me - it won't be all doom and gloom I promise!

Thursday, 8 September 2011

Working Blues

So - now I'm working flat out. And it's tiring - and stressful - and just so hard leaving the kids.

Martha's just had a complete meltdown.

"I don't want you to go to work, Mummy. I want you to take me to school every day."

She sobbed for half an hour this evening curled onto my lap like a little baby. I think she felt like one at that point.

I feel pretty low at the moment. If we didn't need the money I wouldn't be doing it - not when the kids are still so small. We've been through a lot - the kids have been through loads in their short lives, nearly losing their mum before they'd even started school. I know most women have to work.... I know it's nothing so monumental. But for our family just at the moment, the dramatic change feels pretty monumental. Not much I can do though really if we're to continue paying that blasted mortgage!

Any advice out there for me???


Meghan said...

i struggle with it every day. this will be no consolation, however, if you are ok with it they will be as well. it just takes time to adjust. hang in there!

Rebecca S. said...

Hello Kate...I can imagine it must be a hard change for you all. From what I have seen, the families that do the best with working moms are ones where the kids know deep down that THEY are the most important thing in their parents' lives, not the work. You may find that for the first while it may be just work and your kids that makes up your life - and little time to yourself, but perhaps it is important in the beginning to drive that point home? I don't know, because I don't speak from experience, only observation, but it's all I could think of to tell you.

Anonymous said...

Sending you huge virtual hugs. Have no helpful advice to give, sadly (went through similar situation myself) other than the fact that other people do this, and seem to manage / stagger through family life. I think if you even vaguely enjoy your job it will get easier both for you and the rest of your family. It's early days. Enjoy your weekend.

Rebecca S. said...

I left a comment the other day, but I can see it didn't 'take'. I think I rambled about something to do with your kids knowing deep down that they are more important than your work...but I can see now it may not have been at all helpful. What can I say? Hard times, which I hope will get better. My little one was in complete shock going back to school last week as it was.