Kate's Blog

Follow me if you will as I try to navigate through the ups and downs of my world.

I'm writing this blog to help me make sense of all that has happened - from my diagnosis with non-Hodgkins lymphoma while pregnant with my third child in May 2008
, through to my reflections on chaotic family life as I try to pick up the pieces of my life again.

The kids are so small, and I'm working hard to keep us all safe and to stay in remission.

Stay with me - it won't be all doom and gloom I promise!

Wednesday, 18 May 2011


I just can't get anything done!!

How am I expected to clean the house, shop, cook, do the washing, ferry the kids around - all with an obstreperous Hattie in tow - and also write regularly, blog regularly and chase part-time teaching work for September?????

And all that's without factoring in the haemophilia. This morning I optimistically - and some would say stupidly - dressed for a run. My lovely child-minder friend was having Hattie for the morning (.... some crazy idea that it'll get her used to me going back to work), and I thought that I might just be able to sneak away before returning to the long imaginary to-do list in my head which began highlighted in bold, 'Hoover Ed's Bedroom' (oh.... the glamour of my life). I won't continue down the list but you get the picture.

Anyhow.... Ed has had a painful bleed deep inside his knee since Monday tea-time when he went out to play football. I treated him on Monday night (new blue needles) and again yesterday morning. But this morning he was still hobbling - packing him off to school, while tempting, didn't seem to be the entirely responsible option. So, after changing out of the fetching running gear, off we went to hospital. Last week he was there on Tuesday and Wednesday morning, this week he missed this whole morning and may have to go tomorrow if things aren't settled.

I am meant to be starting to write an article as well as ringing and arranging to visit several schools today. I also promised Rog I'd look over his latest job applicaton letter (for a headship - not bad!), and I wanted to run (did I mention that), and I needed to clean, as usual. Now I have about half an hour before the school run and all I want to do is lie comatose... or at least slump with a cup of tea in hand.

I also wanted to post on my blog today. Have actually done that! I've achieved something then!


Anita said...

I hope it helped to purge a little. Take comfort in knowing that you have lots of company. I feel the same many days.

Funny...during the school season, I wait for summer because I think I can get caught up, and during the summer, I wait for school to start for the same reason.

I have a book, "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff...and it's all small stuff," and one page advised to not obsess over getting all of our tasks completed, because it will never happen.

I still have a problem - believing that I can someday have order beyond what it currently is, so I'm working on "not sweating it." :)

Take a deep breath and then just do what you can.

Rebecca S. said...

Feeling a bit similar these days. I think it's the time of year...everything coming to a head. I'm amazed at how much you do with having a little one in tow all the time. Maybe you could sit back with that cup of tea and take some of the pressure to be everything off yourself?
Tomorrow is another day and you are amazing xoxo
(I keep fanticizing about hiring a cleaner)