Follow me if you will as I try to navigate through the ups and downs of my world.
I'm writing this blog to help me make sense of all that has happened - from my diagnosis with non-Hodgkins lymphoma while pregnant with my third child in May 2008, through to my reflections on chaotic family life as I try to pick up the pieces of my life again.
The kids are so small, and I'm working hard to keep us all safe and to stay in remission.
Stay with me - it won't be all doom and gloom I promise!
But, Oh no - now apparently I have to tell you 10 random but true things about myself. That's kind of hard. The pressure! They may not be very interesting, I feel I must warn you. But here they are anyhow. Glass of wine to hand??
1. I wish I could play jazz clarinet in smoky bars, looking and sounding unbelievably amazing. This is as opposed to wondering if I should pick up the clarinet I haven't properly played since I was a teenager, and make some strange and not very groovy sounds.
2. I have always wanted to travel on the Trans-Siberian Railway. I have not given up on this dream despite the three small children which hold me down (or should that be anchor me ) in sunny Newcastle-upon Tyne.
3. I used to ride horses and I want to ride horses again.
4. I love to read in bed in the morning with many many cups of coffee. This doesn't happen very often.
5. I am a huge, huge, huge Bob Dylan fan.
6. I want a campervan.
7. I am going to the Green Man music festival this summer in the Brecon Beacons, Wales. We are camping... with all the kids!
8. I have a quick and fiery temper. Patience is a virtue which unfortunately I largely lack. I'm waiting for motherhood to mellow me!
9. I like cooking and love eating good food. Alas the waif-ish look is not for me. I used to be more waif-like though. Three pregnancies, life-threatening illness and severe and unwavering exhaustion plus an enforced, very severe and very early menopause don't help. Excuses, excuses!
10. I want to write a novel and see it published. I want this very, very much.
So, there you are. Fascinating, I'm sure you'll agree.
I'm a mother with three kids under eight whose demands, squabbles and general existence take up unimaginable swathes of time. I've also secretly always fancied myself as a bit of a writer - though not with much evidence to show for it - so maybe writing this will prod me in the right direction. We'll see.