Ahem! Just clearing my throat really. I'm still here though.
I'm feeling so overwhelmed at the moment that I'm struggling to find time for the blog.
I've started meditiation classes on a Tuesday night - which seem amazing and interesting, but everytime I close my eyes and start to try to 'follow the inspiration' I fall asleep. It was the first session on Tuesday. I was sitting on a hard chair, in a cold, draughty room, in a strange and unsettling part of town, with a group of people I'd only met that evening. And I fell asleep. Honestly, I despair. I'm not sure you can sleep 'mindfully', which is what I suggested to the teacher when I woke up. I was bloody dreaming for god's sake! She was non-comittal.
I'm prescribing myself some early nights and stress-free days - ha ha. Otherwise I may as well just go to bed on Tuesday so I can sleep in more comfortable surroundings.
Stuff with the kids just seems to take over. I can't find time to read, write, exercise or sleep properly.
Thanks, by the way, for everyone's lovely and supportive comments to the last couple of posts. If I was American I might say, Gee, you guys!!!! But being truly British I can only express my thanks much more formally.
I know this post doesn't really have a 'thread' exactly, unlike my other seamless offerings (threads, seamless....?...), but it's an achievement to get to the computer.
Oh... and I might be taking a trip to India with my mother at Easter. Now that's more like it! No kids - Rog says he'll have them. For 10 days??? I'm not sure I can leave them, or should leave them... but it's an 'Easter Chill-out'!!!! In Rajasthan!!! Tempting - oh so tempting. A once in a lifetime thing to celebrate being well and looking to the future. But kind of selfish. And more than kind of unselfish to look after three children on your own when you don't have to. Aargh. What do you think?
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